New Year Resolutions, hah!

My parents just informed me that they're leaving for Texas today and I have to take them to the airport. I'm really glad they informed me I'm going to be alone for a week a day after Christmas three hours before they have to leave... that was sarcasm by the way. Whatever, I'm going to be working 90% of the time anyway so it's not like I'm going to be home much.

I'm also really bored right now, so I've been thinking about the New Years resolutions I'm going to be breaking. So far I've come up with:

1. Work out atleast twice a week.
2. Stop drinking so much soda.
3. Lay off the chocolate.
4. Restrict shopping expenditures to a maximum of $50 every two weeks.

This is really how it's gonna go:

1. Work out twice a month. Maybe.
2. Cut out at least one can of soda a day. Maybe.
3. Not even going to happen.
4. Restrict shopping expenditures to a maximum of $100 a week. It's a habit alright?

I know it sounds horrible, but I'm being honest with myself. I've never been one for restrictions or rules. I usually break them if I cant find a way to bend them. It's better to ask forgiveness than spend the rest of your life regretting never having done what you felt you had to apologize for.
Now I get to go sign up for classes for this semester.
I'm so over school.

bah humbug.

I really wish I could go back to the time where Christmas was fun and happy instead of stressful and anxiety-ridden. I guess thats all part of growing up, but you know what? Thats lame. Is this how my parents felt when December rolled around -- all anxious and stressed? There isnt one place where I havent seen the effects of this season. Its at work, it was at school, its at home, even my friends are more high strung than usual (which is saying a lot because they're typically mellow and relaxed).
It's so frustating because all I want to do is enjoy the one break I've had in 8 months. Yet, here I am stressed out over work, bills, and how I'm going to afford to pay for the gifts I want to get certain people and the gifts I feel obligated to get other certain people (because they've already gotten one for me and I wasnt planning on getting anything for them).
Merry frickin Christmas.

ps: I really do hope it gets better, for myself and everyone. I hate feeling like the Grinch.

Dear winter break,

I'm glad you came because if you hadn't, I was about to burn out.

J'adore votre ensemble cherie...tres parisienne...

You know me and clothes, so you can probably figure out that I'm completely in love with this look. It makes me wish I lived somewhere cold and rainy. Oh, le sigh, soon (I hope)...

yeah, I know..

yes, it has been forever and I apologize. A lot of stuff has gone down recently and I dont know whether I've handled it well or not. I'm sure it's subjective but, honestly, at this point I'm leaning towards 'not so much'.

1. That apartment I was so excited about? Yeah, isnt gonna happen. I was going to have two roommates and everything was doing grand, I bought funiture and basically everything necessary to have in an apartment. One of the two girls called me frantically two days ago saying her grandparents cut her loan (they were paying for her school and major necessities) and is now royally broke/fucked. Needless to say she's moving back home to California until her new loan goes through for the Fall '09 semester.
I'm now down a roommate and was supposed to move into the apartment in 6 days in order to get the fantastic discount. I cant find another roommate by the 17th, and while I do have money, I dont have enough to pay a $450 deposit, a $280 move-in cost and then the rent upfront. I would have only had to pay $350 in rent if there were three roommates, but now that theres only two...the other girl cant pay $600 a month until we find a new girl. So she would want to pay less and I pay more. I'm sorry but I cant afford an $800/mo. rent ontop of all the other fees I'm already paying because I got the master (which was absolutely fabulous by the way).

2. Some shit went down the other day at work between myself and one of the other managers and the fool is STILL bitching about it. Now the GM is on the case and is asking questions (because he wouldnt shut up about it to the servers) when I thought the situation had been settled btwn the two of us in the first place.

3. My advisor called me in the other day and told me that the school had changed its qualifications, mid-semester, for their Interior Design program and I'm lacking now in 4 classes on top of the classes I still have to take. Which means...I'm not graduating at the end of this spring semester like I would have. Oh no, I'm having to take an extra semester in order graduate. It sucks because these were classes I would/should have taken my first year, not my last.

Ugh. I'm so stressed out with everything...christmas is coming up and NOBODY has told me what they wanted. Apparently we're doing an exchange this year and I have to get crap for cousins I've never met. I'm sorry, but my money is reserved for family I'm actually familiar with and close friends. My Grandpa pulled the same crap my Grandma would have by making me feel guilty, saying it was her last wish that the family get to know eachother better. I'm not getting something for a cousin, who last I heard, was 50k in debt because he couldnt keep his credit card in his wallet. Thats not exactly how I want to spend my hard-earned Christmas money.
So I've been laying in bed eating sweetarts, listening to PCD's and Taylor Swifts new CDs that I legally (for once) downloaded. Staring out my window at a garden and a brick wall trying to figure out what to do. Though, at the moment, I cant help feeling like that brick wall is somehow mocking me.