bah humbug.

I really wish I could go back to the time where Christmas was fun and happy instead of stressful and anxiety-ridden. I guess thats all part of growing up, but you know what? Thats lame. Is this how my parents felt when December rolled around -- all anxious and stressed? There isnt one place where I havent seen the effects of this season. Its at work, it was at school, its at home, even my friends are more high strung than usual (which is saying a lot because they're typically mellow and relaxed).
It's so frustating because all I want to do is enjoy the one break I've had in 8 months. Yet, here I am stressed out over work, bills, and how I'm going to afford to pay for the gifts I want to get certain people and the gifts I feel obligated to get other certain people (because they've already gotten one for me and I wasnt planning on getting anything for them).
Merry frickin Christmas.

ps: I really do hope it gets better, for myself and everyone. I hate feeling like the Grinch.